4/Nov/2015

I wake up a little early 8:15 A.M. In the morning. I was energetic after wake up because I thought a lot previous night. Today I did meditation, watched ending of Awakening with BK And also listened to some Spiritual songs. Morning was all great. I have decided to Do a project with Microsoft Word at 12:00 PM but I had lot of work .. Which didn't let me do that. I had do a lot of typing in between 11:00 - 1:00 PM. I was breaking my promise but Don't why I was accepting that. It was first wrong point which was depleting mY energy from inside. Then I went to bank to transfer money, after that I was checking YouTube where I watched sandeep maheshwari latest video "The Courage" It was very much inspiring . I boosted up. And soon It was evening. I played cricket  60 minutes after 5:00.and enjoyed the mental and physical work.
Then after that again I was dull because I have skipped three things which I should have done.
1) I should have read Murli in the morning.   
2) I should have worked on that project.
3) I should have gone to BKs at 7:00 PM
...I am attached to unknown energy.. Don't know what is it. I will explore it soon. I had a great routine earlier but suddenly my routine is bad.
             If I will not complete my own works.. How can I complete others work?
At Evening.. I was feeling dull and tired. And mind was beating me.. It was like my intellect is lost and mind won.
             So,  I am in journey to Observe and Explore problems if my life.
            Still.. Today was better than previous day.
          Lets see what tomorrow bring to me.
   I am excited for tomorrow because now I am an open guide to myself.
Sorry for bad English.